Monday, March 19, 2007
Wanted to watch Music & Lyrics but he didn't want to. =/ So watched Happily n'ever ever. Funny, hahas. And going to watch Mr bean the holiday next week! =) Saw the trailer of it, bet it's gonna be funny like hell.
Went to bed last night, lots of mad thoughts and it indirectly caused my dream? =/ If i had the guts to do what i did in my dream, it would be all nice. Not minding the outcome of anything but just saying what i really want to say.
Want to say so much for everything, standing by me .. give me advice on what to do with oven, listen to me what i had to say .. bearing with me even thou i blew hot and cold whenever i felt like it. And even thou i started to sort-of liked you at one point and you were still there, i did nothing because i just didn't want to face it that i like someone like you, the same person that i told my friends that it's impossible and how much i can't stand so i just turned colder to you to hide it all away. Smses, msn conversations took place often then they started to get lesser and lesser. Worse, i started working .. didn't have much time online. You offered to come-by but i didn't know how to react so i turned you away and came up with all sorts of really stupid excuses as what i always used when you tried to ask me out like a zillion times. You once asked me to bring you this favorite bar of mine and said since it's my favorite, it'll most probably be your favorite. But i didn't give you, even thou i carried one around but i was simply too shy to pass you one. =/ I wanted to maintain that heck-care attitude. And you also 'kope' my over-used emotion and made it your over-used emotion too and told me just because i always use it so it reminds you of me. =x
But some time later, i forgot what exactly happened but we just kinda stopped talking much. But there was still this silly grin whenever we saw each other, like nothing had happened. Your friends and you still do the stupid things that always manage to get my attention. But too much has happened since lately, i guess you aren't the type to keep close after what happened.
Whether if you'll ever get to hear what i have to say, i have no idea. =/ Some say i should say or else i'll just regret. But if i say it, what if things get worse? Saying it doesn't mean you'll turn back and there'll be a happy ending. =/ What's the logic behind of me wanting to say all this .. i really don't know. Feel better? Walk away, knowing that i told you what i want you to know?
And i know it isn't really me to say all this and type all this out. zz. But i just burst out typing everything once i start .. read it and don't laugh. -.- I feel so zzzzzzzzzz. What am i thinking man, typing this out to almost half of the world. =.= Oh crap, what's done been done.
10:01 PM
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