Saturday, May 05, 2007
Same timing, bad mood swings.
just fcked up.
I know it's the truth but what the fuck. Do you need to mention it?! I don't normally say such stuff but what the fuck, it's not like you are any better. Although it might be seem just to be normal teasing but what the fuck, it's too much?! I got some self- esteem too.
what the fuck.
it's all my mind can think off. All the $#%@$@. All the worse words ever all in my mind.
I think i'm silly and dumb to even care about this. God. Fark.
There used to be a time when i kept falling into mood swings almost everyday. Then i don't know what happen but i sorted of cheered up more during my yr 2 times. Just hide my mood swings away although they happen like once in a blue moon or pms times.
But fark, now it seems that old times like those are back?! I get mood swings almost everyday or every night. My head just so full of thoughts. But unlike the times when i showed it obviously, now i just hide them and pretend that i'm all smiles.
Some random points.
-I don't need a boyfriend to complete my life so don't ask me to find one because you think i look as if i need some love. Fark, as if you know my love life. i don't need love. I got my friends and my family and that's what matters the most.
-Fark, i don't need great looks or a great bod to attract others. Yah, i know i'm being alittle thick-skin but those who don't know a shit about my life then just shut up because i don't need your pov.
-I hate cowardly guys. What's with the crap that you don't want to do anything when you say that you love the girl so much and just want her to be happy. I don't buy that crap. You can only say you want her to be happy and don't do anything AFTER you tried something like hint her or something. ....... whatever. I don't know how to put down in words about this topic. If i say i don't like that guy and things wouldn't work out, just take my words once and forever and stop asking me about it. Pisses me off like crap. I know i'm hard to please but it's only because i don't like you.
-I wouldn't ditch my friends for my boyfriend. Look at the previous one and you can see. Don't make me bring up that matter, i will drag up past matters even thou they happened ten years ago. No matter how tired i am, i still take the time and effort to hang out with my friends even thou i'm half dead and totally falling asleep soon, call me in the middle of the night when there's a problem and i forgo my sleep. Don't ever say i got new friends and i don't want old friends anymore or what crap.
I'm going to sleep before i list everything out that i can't stand then it'll probably end when the sun rises.
I can't talk to anyone, just kuku.
Makes me feel well even thou we wouldn't even come close to talking about the problem.
1:24 AM
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