Thursday, June 21, 2007
omg la.
-__- He asked me whether if i was happy with him. I replied don't know. hahas. And he kept asking why why why! Faster re-direct the question back to him, and he said yes. Then later while waiting for the train, he asked about that day then i told him that i already sort-of knew and expected it already then he kept smiling. -.-" Asked him why keep smiling and laughing like mad then he said because he's very happy.
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Makes me feel kinda zz.
Friend asked what am i planning to do, i have no idea.
We had dinner, and just chatted like how we used to chat in the past. I don't know why but i prefer times like those instead of the holding hands blah part. =/ I know he's nice to me but i seriously don't feel as much as what he does. It's not like i don't like him. I do but it's just abit?! I know it's just 4 days, and we can still expect more but there's just this weird feeling in me that's just different. Everytime i know that he feels happy just by being with me, i feel as if i'm deceiving him.
Everyone says he's a nice guy and i know that. He's so afraid of me, getting angry that he will do anything to avoid it. Some say nice or not, it's up to the feelings. But i feel 50-50. One part is to ask for a time-out and the other is to just hold on and let him be happy, don't hurt him.
I don't want to bluff him as a friend but i don't want to hurt him as a boyfriend.
I want things to work but yet i can't make things work.
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Single, not single.
There's always something to be troubled about.
There's another mr nice out there who treats me almost the same as he does. But this isn't important nor it will affect anything.
7:37 PM
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